COULD I HAD A BETTER LIFE Lyrics

So upset just pitch me a tone

Terribly unhappy in this zone

I'm sitting here awaiting for my frighten fears

Afraid of myself voices whispers into my ears

I picture a gun in my hand I know it's crazy too much to comprehend

Murky are the clouds I just feel left out

There are no justifications for any hesitation can't give out any explanation

I guess I'll murder myself to escape this world that I been living in

Could I had a better life

Kill each world of mine

Don't help never try to compromise

Can't wait to end this

End this shit of horror

I'm drinking again never felt so drunk

There I stumble and don't like being touched

Special is formerly not me who gives a fuck

I'm looking down at the barrel the gun I'll use

Hopelessness lurking I'm always accused

Headaches' pounding seems like I'm drowning

Temper I will release no time to pause

Destruction leading to it all

Could I had a better life

Kill each world of mine

Don't help never try to compromise

Can't wait to end this

End this shit of horror

I say every final goodbyes

As hours smoothly moves on alright

Saddened I' am no need for alibis

Am' I dull who gives a damn

Talking is so wacked and it's six am

Corrupted I'm becoming perhaps I'll banish into slush

And decompose in mush

Could I had a better life

Kill each world of mine

Don't help never try to compromise

Can't wait to end this

End this shit of horror