Bleed Lyrics

Wish I could go back to being a kid again

So I don't keep going through hell again and again

And none of the thoughts are immense and nothing is at your expense

If I was a kid again, all of my troubles would come to an end

That ain't how it works

Summer of 2020, I had to get surgery on half of my spine

Stayed at the hospital just for a couple of weeks, all of the nurses thought I would be fine

But when I came home, I had a reaction to all of the medicine

Went crazy off all the drugs, swore that I'll never get high for a day in my life again

Felt like a curse since the day of my birth

Used to fight back when I would get kicked to the dirt

Now I just bottle it up and act like I never got hurt

Started in high school, I thought it could never get worse

Make any song to express how I feel and everyone laughed at my work

Lost and alone, so I'm not too sure of my worth

Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me

Cutting my arm by the hour, I like how I feel when I bleed

Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me

Dying inside, I'm crying for help, I'm watching my body bleed

Feel like the world would be at its best if I wasn't there

Writing these letters to people who don't even care

Joined theater so I could be part of a group but they never wanted me there

Put all of my trust into people who never cared

Administration was corrupt, it's not like they were unaware

And then I got chronically ill

Skip ahead three years later, still not doing too well

My life is a living hell

Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me

Cutting my arm by the hour, I like how I feel when I bleed

Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me

Dying inside, I'm crying for help, I'm watching my body bleed