Bygones Lyrics

Let's go

Right right

You gotta forgive

Let go and let

I know it's past midnight and NICU open for 21 hours

But how I'm s'posed to breathe without her

I ain't heard from the doctor since I gave birth

Took one glimpse a contraction

Why nobody know what happened?

Seem like every 2 hours a new nurse

And this one nurse must be gettin paid the way she keep taking my blood pressure

But my heart hurt

Is yall gone check that too?

Mama by my side

Daddy wasn't in the room

They keep telling me it's gone be alright right but

ain't nobody telling me my daughter fine

My father in law drove 2 hours to see the do not disturb sign

I ain't pulled a all nighter since a college paper was assigned

Now I graduated, screaming mama we made it

But I bet if I had cake, we wouldn't have to wait and

I feel like I failed myself

What if today's her last day?

And she couldn't call for help

Man...

If tomorrow wasn't promised

What if today was your last day?

Would you forgive your enemies?

If tomorrow isn't promised

Why do we live like we got forever

Like it's a guarantee

Nobody knows what the future holds

When God calls em home

If tomorrow wasn't promised

What if today was your last day?

What would you do?

You gotta forgive

Let go and let live

It's the next day

And everybody went home

Hubby snoring like he in hibernation

He gone

Told me she was gone pull through

But we ain't got no news

I aint seen my eyelids

I can't sleep I refuse

Mama wanted answers in NICU

Said they kept her warm

but her arm wouldn't move

I cried so much that my eyes hurt

Cause I was confused

I did everything right

You couldn't walk in my shoes

I was numb to the congratulations

They didn't seem real

I just wanted to see her

And feel what she feel

Take her pain away

Flashbacks of when I spaced

All the risks I faced

Felt the trauma, the guilt and disgrace

A black woman giving birth in America

Never thought I'd recognize myself again

Isolated from my friends

Fast forward 2 years later

Past the postpartum depression

Got answers to my questions

As I use my pen

I'm a living testimony

Even dark times are blessings

Tomorrow's not promised

So appreciate your present

To the doctor that hurt me, I forgive you

I'm taking back my power and joy

With pain in my rearview

Man…

If tomorrow wasn't promised

What if today was your last day?

Would you forgive your enemies?

If tomorrow isn't promised

Why do we live like we got forever

Like it's a guarantee

Nobody knows what the future holds

When God calls them home

If tomorrow wasn't promised

What if today was your last day?

What would you do?

You gotta forgive

Let go and let live

Say I am strong

I am fearfully and wonderfully made