XCIV Lyrics

Why does this life hold the affections of our heart as strongly as it does

Mama come look your baby made it could have been another statistic

But I ain't gonna detail that no further cuz I don't want to be sadistic

These last few months I done been in a cage match with these expectations

Why I ain't a millionaire with payments

Why there ain't no babies in a playpen

Could have been in a neighborhood where to contact me you'd have to kick some gates in

Famous singer

Big influencer

Something to release God's fragrance

But instead here I am trying to show earth and Satan like

Who's the bigger man who dove and cannonballed down as my replacement

In the middle of a quarter life trying to give a quota life

Sinking in the standard of my own Pharisee

First instinct is a bunch of tears traveling my face

Bury hope in my own fallacies like

Where's the empath that can say he proud of me

No one comprehends the pressure

I became my own nightmare fighting with a plumb line

I made then mastered conjecture

But when you see the excellency of Christ

Isn't the desire of your heart

To call out to Christ from the depths of your heart and say

Lord

You are better than everything that I lack

Folly fiction making itself into holy moral

Perception of American dream trying to start a quarrel

The Lord heard all my standards

He said I should let em go

Cuz he ain't even reach him

If he wrong I should let him know

The wild part is I have all I need to give praise today

The stuff I'm sweating Jesus told the ruler to give away

High jumping for a standard I don't need to be leaping for

Long jumping for a marker I don't need to be reaching for

And looking upon this earth I seen my joy get up and walk off

Looking upon my list I seen these items I ain't cross off

Looking upon my dreams I seen some parts I had to wake up

Looking upon anxieties I have to get my cake up

But looking up at my Savior gave my heart some new perspective

Like stare at the pictures of the ways you connected

Look at how the loneliness never lasts but a quick minute

Look at the people He gave

Look at the spiritual children

Look at your beautiful home

You ain't wake up in no scandal

All the gifts that he's given

Role models examples

When you ponder it you know you haven't lost

Happy birthday

You still believing in the cross and