My Origin Lyrics

Okay, children, gather round again

Let me tell you my story of origin

How I became this mad villain

Full of self-hatred and destruction

How I always think I'm disgusting

Take a journey solely in within

To a place that I really never been

Cause I truly just wasn't ready then

It all started back when I was like Ten

Wrestling in a park with all my friends

Then I had no interest in women

Life had a meaning and a ring

Happiness wasn't a mask you're wearing

But what hit then next was depression

Life lost its spark and its meaning

That's the first time I ever grabbed a pen

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em Screaming and yelling a riot

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em

Screaming and yelling a riot

Do you know what it's like?

Living in a mind that his sly

Cannot trust your own thoughts cause they lie

So you internally cry and you wish that you die

Can't even vent to cuz nobody cares

Anyone you ever with shared has bailed

All left a trail of broken tales

Due to the things you've said and shared

Left you alone with a tucked in tail

All of this taught you really not to care

Other than the person you see in the mirror

But you lose who you are and you just disappear

And sadly you lack to care for yourself

By the time that you get back up and stare

Back to the mirror you realize that you're no longer there

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em Screaming and yelling a riot

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em

Screaming and yelling a riot

And I'm broken ripped of emotion

Reaching a point of extreme exhaustion

Hoping to finally rid of this omen

Hugïnn and Muninn guide me to open seas

And see the remnants of me

Started my journey

Of how did I be, come to be what I barely see?

As a kid I was not raised angry

But I met people that are so nasty

I was raised alright, I wasn't raised to fight

But I was raised on love and to be so kind

But it was then, before my pen

Became my own and only medicine

And I started to hate every single human

Being that walked this earth and their kin

And I wish I wasn't the way I am

I no longer care if you understand

Cuz firstly I need to fathom

Who I am, draw portraits of me in a grain of sand

And I wish that I wasn't the way I am

I no longer care if you understand

Cuz firstly I need to fathom

Who I am, draw portraits of me in a grain of sand

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em Screaming and yelling a riot

I'm an open book but the author is dying

My mind is a mess, let's learn what's inside

Negative thoughts and I cannot defy em

Screaming and yelling a riot