I'll Be the Next to Go // Surely, We'll See Each Other Soon ft. Dean Scordilis Lyrics

A flash

A spark in your eye

That quickly recedes from vision

Replaced with

Faces half-formed

And memories half-invented

A dream-state masquerading

As your waking life

You live with

Vague ideas

Concerning

Limitless potential

'Til you're blindsided by

The passing of time

And realize you've run

Out of options

And suddenly

You're aware of

Your mortality

Death casts a shadow

Over everything you do

The present is intangible

Infinitely divisible

Out of reach

A flicker of light

Shows us where we're

Set to wander

Outside a five-story tenement

In a city where it always rains

A car waits

On Mabbot Street, stumbling next to children shaken in

St. Vitus' dance, we phase in and out of personas

A clarion call sounds from miles away, the

Aural embodiment of our collective unconscious

I hear it all from my apartment

We used to laugh about this

So I return to that class, the one that used to meet by the lake

The one we swore someone had drowned in

You were there, sitting under an old redwood (I forget what we used to call it)

Scented of soap, buttons bound with salt, speaking little

Yes, your boyfriend wove through an infinite loop

While you quietly dreamt of westerns

Saying "Okay, I'll be part of this world"

There were sirens passing St. John the Apostle

I was up the street near the Temple Beth when I heard them

Not swept up in a terrible tremor

For in the pit of my stomach I knew

A waltz sailed through an open window and despite everything I smiled

Because I knew you didn't die in four-four time

I remember staring at constellations, wondering where forever went

So you told me that everything flows into everything else

That a shout in the street might be god or a note in the orchestra

Each wave passing faintly and faintly passing through the universe

I return to that now, in this life of limited options

You're so far away, reduced to a handful of traits

I know this will never be good enough

But even though I can't capture your essence

(Somehow I know)

We're not separate

We're not separate

Hell may be other people, but then truthfully, so is heaven

We're not separate

We're not separate

This is but your first death

I'll keep speaking your name