Open Letter Lyrics

Everywhere i go i never feel like myself

I'm just tryna fit in i'm tryna be myself

Smoke in my lungs takin a toll on my health

Depression always lurking man its tekky with the stealth

N i don't care about the wealth don't wanna prove my strength

i just wanna do this to avoid my death

I don't wanna be the best i just wanna be better

Consider this shit a fucking open letter

I wanna know

How not to lose control

Of myself

I'm tryna keep a hold

But i keep falling down this hole

By myself

Yeah i'm fallin from the top towards rock bottom

I was buried while alive but i did not blossom

Life keeps beatin me up and i just play possum

Had a list of friends until i had to crossem

still carrying their weights i cant seem to tossem

My problems in my vision but i cant even spot'em

Dark thoughts flooding my head and i cant even stop'em

my brain so corrupt man it feels like gotham

I wanna know

How not to lose control

Of myself

I'm tryna keep a hold

But i keep falling down this hole

By myself

And i wonder why

I'm still alive

Why do i

Can not decide

What i want from this life

Most of the timeI just wanna die

I'm goin insane i'm losing my head

I'm tryna focus but i'm losin instead

I let go of the pain usin ink n lead

But deep in my mind i wanna taste the lead

I'm tryna move forward but my feet have bled

being held down by all the things they said

This weight so heavy and it feels like boulders

Add this open letter to my sad songs folder

I wanna know

How not to lose control

Of myself

I'm tryna keep a hold

But i keep falling down this hole

By myself