I Used To Lyrics

I used to hold my breath and count to ten.

That's how I used to keep these walls from closing in.

And I was always sure that

What I used to know was real or not.

Now I can't tell the difference,

But I used to.

I used to know when storms were getting close.

They changed the color of the sky I miss the most.

And when the rain would stop,

I don't remember if I cried or not.

Now I can't tell the difference

But I used to.

Sometimes I need a break

From all this make-believe.

It's getting harder to remember

That I used to be......

Cold and deep, like a river

A redwood tree, only bigger

Heart cut open so you all can see.

Black and blue, like a fighter

Head in the clouds, maybe higher

Big, bright stars right in front of me.

One step away from a breakthrough

Now I can't fly, but I used to.

I used to think what's broken can't be fixed.

When all the pieces left behind don't seem to fit.

Still, I do the best I can

To keep from speeding up or slowing down.

Now, I can't tell the difference,

But I used to.

Sometimes I need a break

From all this make-believe.

It's getting harder to remember

That I used to be,

The only one I'm fighting for.

The only one's been here before.

The only one who knows I used to be...

Cold and deep, like a river

A redwood tree, only bigger

Heart cut open so you all can see.

Black and blue, like a fighter

Head in the clouds, maybe higher

Big, bright stars right in front of me.

One step away from a breakthrough

Now I can't fly, but I used to.