Gift Rap ft. Soufside Code Lyrics

I thought about you often way before you came

I thought about your traits

About your looks

About your name

I thought about the things I need to change to keep you safe

I thought about the man who'd be your dad each time I prayed

I thought about you long before I knew you by the way

I used to be a mama with a step before the phrase

Raising up a family that I didn't help create

Left scars on a heart already frail enough to break

I try to let it go but I'm a glutton for the pain

I haven't felt inspired in some months I feel estranged

From the everything that kept me so connected I'm ashamed

To say I cannot write because I'm sober nowadays

I try not to complain, But that just builds resentment that I cannot throw away

My craft been so neglected it's affecting everything

Now my mood keep swinging like disorders of the brain

Hope my dude ain't thinking that he's the one to blame

How I put these words together but can't communicate

If these bars could really talk they'd probably tell him I'm insane

Swear I'm not the same girl that nigga's knew from yesterday

I'm still improving that's okay

I think about you often and you ain't even here yet

Oni been an orphan for so long I think I'm scared that

Having this lil family of my own could make me end rap

Keep listening to songs I made before like why you said that

It's your favorite demon force of habit it so I dead that

Mother called it first I made it work that's why I kept that demon shit around me

Word to mommy I'ma get back, everything I lost along the way before I quit rap

Tell em it's a present when I spit so this shit gift wrapped

Aloni got a warrior for a mommy, can't forget that

Her daddy right beside me like forever ain't a death trap

I love him more than he could ever know this more than just rap

I thought about you often, way before you came

I thought about your traits

About your looks

About your name

I thought about the things I need to change to keep you safe

I thought about the man who'd be your dad each time I prayed

I thought about you long before I knew you by the way

I used to be a mama with a step before the phrase

Raising up a family that I didn't help create

Left scars on a heart already frail enough to break

I'ma take the time for you

Everybody wanna be a killer I would die for you

Eating up my pride I'm a lion too

Hold on let me speak on some stuff I been through

Hold on let me let you get the most of me

Like

I know people really want control of me

But they don't have perspective

Who I am is who I'm 'posed to be

From our first conversation girl I knew you felt the growth in me

And see I understand

Girl like you in high demand

I would never hide the past, yuh

Husband and a dad and I'm standing on it

Unpredictables are coming and I'm planning on it

It feel like magic don't it,This a magic moment

Panoramic view, it might be true that she gon' change our focus

But baby my genetics potent

We'll enhance the motion

Promise in my presence, When it's blurry will enhance the focus

All my father figures came and went, I've been broken since

Really this our chance to give to her, what we could never get

Really I've been feeling like it's perfect Bae every sense

I can tell you wanting something solid

And I'm here I got it

Behaving like you ride or die, That's my shorty

Cause we know how these women lie

And free Tory

I thought about you often

Way before you came

I thought about your traits

About your looks

About your name

I thought about the things I need to change To keep you safe

I thought about the man who be your dad each time I prayed

I thought about you long before I knew you by the way

I used to be a mama with a step before the phrase

Raising up a family that I didn't help create

Left scars on a heart already frail enough to break