Tired Of Lying To Myself Lyrics

I gotta stop lying to myself

In the car chillin crying to myself

I know you prolly tired of me

S#!t I'm tired of myself

Ion even smoke the weed

But I'm trying it myself

Avoiding finding myself!

It's like I pay this phone bill

For folks to stress me out

Rap about it 'fa I tell 'em bout it

Cause they shut me out

Got everything I ever asked for

What you pressed about ?

Like Ni$$as with money

Do not have problems

Shid help me out!

Children barely know each other

Cause they mamas crazy

Son won't talk to me

Trynna build a bond

But he a mama's baby

Barely know my daughter

Crazy part about it she my twin

Seven months later

Had another daughter

They don't know they kin

I got 5 kids

Wanna leave these streets alone

But I can't I'm tied in!

Hustle hard so my children don't

never need nobody!

They don't even know

They daddy love 'em to death Wish I can get 'em together and tell 'em myself

I'm tired of lying to myself

One day this S#!t gone be aight

God got it

He gone make everything alright

(I just be lying to myself)

Everything gone be back like it used to be

He love me

I know my Ni$$a ain't using me

I'm tired of lying to myself! (S#!t)

Family call every time

They need some

I know they gone be right there

When I need some

I just be lying to myself!

I looked out for 'em

Because he wasn't able

When he get straight tho

Ik he gone return the favor

I'm tired of lying to myself!

This rap S#!t

I just be asking for support

The same support they give

When it's time to go to court

Cause they be all in

Wonder if they gone check on my lil boys if I get all ten

Y'all got that time

I made it my business

To check on yall kids!

Keep that S#!t 1K cause

Y'all gone need this S#!t one day

Who held you down

When you went straight ?

But yall just see this S#!t one way !

Why I always gotta lose ?

Ni$$a don't never wanna

Let me win

Let them eat off of all jugs

Ni$$as don't never wanna

Let me in

They say a good heart

Ain't nothing but a curse

The right Ni$$a

Always looking for the worse

She say she love me

Ion even love me

That's why it don't hurt

When a Ni$$a get hurt

I'm telling you the truth

This the realest S#!t

I'm hoping my sons

Don't live this S#!t!

A walking sacrifice

Bra I'm is this S#!t

Maybe one day

You'll feel this S#!t

I'm tired of lying to myself

One day this S#!t gone be aight

God got it

He gone make everything alright

(I just be lying to myself)

Everything gone be back like it used to be

He love me!

I know my Ni$$a ain't using me

I'm tired of lying to myself! (S#!t)

Family call every time

they need some

I know they gone be right there

When I need some

I just be lying to myself!

I looked out for 'em

Because he wasn't able

When he get straight tho

Ik he gone return the favor

I'm tired of lying to myself!