ruin my life Lyrics

Struck a pencil through the stars the night they were torn

You never bothered with anything that wasn't sworn

Born in the heat of November skies

Looked up to me, two cold blue eyes

Am I right? Am I wrong?

In a flyover state

You'd pass along

Mosaic pieces on the wall

Let me say this for our one last call

I've put up the coat that lined your name

But what parts could ever be the same

And I have worked for what little peace I have

Doesn't matter to you but can I just say that-

If our lives are separate not one

Why can't I say what's done is done

Cause no one can tell me why

Why I can't sleep at night

I'm counting the times I thought you drove by

Why it's so damn hard to leave

Do you have any more tricks up your sleeve?

Oh I talk to friends about the end

How forevers a double-edged knife

And how I

Oh I'd let you ruin my life

I looked back not once but twice

When each goodbye meant too much for the price

I'm a screen projecting too much light

Lost in the vague midnights

Scared to take the leap

At the deep-end pool

My feet can't touch the bottom

Too kind to be cruel

Won't someone tell me why

Why I can't sleep at night

I'm counting the times I thought you drove by

Why it's so damn hard to leave

Do you have any more tricks up your sleeve?

Oh I talk to friends about the end

How forevers a double-edged knife

And how I

Oh I'd let you ruin my life

And you can look back but you won't remember

I unraveled that late November

You can look back but you won't know

What it took to let you go

All the while none the wiser,

I could barely pull it together

Hope that's not the me you remember

Hope that's not the me you remember

Oh I'd let you ruin my life

All the pain and all the strife

I would have you now or never

Who really needs forever?