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I've been walking on eggshells

I've been twirling around

In a little blue dress and

I keep falling down on the ground

'Cause I can't keep my balance

When the gravity's gone

If I'm completely honest

What the fuck has been going on

I'm confused if I should be

Sorry or mad

Are things just as they should be

Or has shit hit the fan

And if you were to tell me what's going on

I wouldn't believe

Any word that comes out of your mouth 'cause

You don't deserve me

In my cool, breezy shadow

Things don't often go well

And I know it's not my fault

Although I've damned you all to hell

And now I know

That the people who want me to stay

Will just say so

'Cause I'm so tired

With dishonesty, honestly

Tell me the truth, I'll be fine

I'm confused if I should be

Sorry or mad

Are things just as they should be

Or has shit hit the fan

And if you were to tell me what's going on

Well, I wouldn't believe

A damn word that comes out of your mouth

'Cause you don't deserve

Am I too mean

Am I the cause

Is it just fate

Did I fuck up my stars

Am I the problem

Like Taylor Swift says

Have I just masterminded all your heads

And I swore it'd be different

Swore I'd grow up

But how can I improve when

Nobody else does

Genetics, I get it

But I must confess

That it's stupid

I've ruined everything I had

And I'd blame it on you

But the evidence doesn't agree

'Cause the one thing in common is me