Paladin's Lament Lyrics

Isolation is what I feel

From everyone and everything

This is what I mean

As they go past, about their day

Only primal in concern

Just shopping lists, a lump of bills, and creditors discerned

I wish that I could just partake

And believe that ignorance is bliss

But my brain will have none of this

I wish that I could be but a passerby

To all of the hopes and the yearns

To have not but to care about survival, oh how my desire for that yet burns

For I know that I am yet able

And gifted to the task

To grab life by the horns of dilemma, to grip it by the shaft

Bend people as sheep down to my will

There is nothing to this swindle so easy

As manipulation and deceivery

Like taking candy from a baby

And wield the sword of diplomacy to take the world by storm

But every time that I do it ends with me in mourn

Cunning and persuasive is the devil on my shoulder left

But in my right and angel light

Convicts me of my theft

It beats me with my shrewdness and it bests me with my own contempt

It reminds me of the lure of things I should not let myself be tempt

I am crippled by my split desire, it leaves me feeling mad

But my prior attempts to conquer it, have just built it ironclad

I am as but a Paladin, in all his righteous trite

Doomed by his unyielding dogma, every injustice he is compelled to fight

He cannot slip his morals, nor smudge the hardline of wrong and right

Or else he has undone, the very thing that gives him light

For when I am compelled to shift my focus aside or yet astray

It is down I spiral yet gracefully

Until depression is where I play

I am not satisfied as such by the apple's wondrous crisp

Or do I gain an ounce of joviality from money when I do attain

Afraid not, I am inclined to be fulfilled by wealth, and so thus don't