A Lesson On Alchemy Lyrics

Another night locked inside

Writing poetry on the backs of bills and bank receipts

Oh, my!

Am I losing my mind?

Despite how you believed in me

I feel the weight slipping

While watching the candle burn the rope underneath

Homebound and counting hours down

Anticipation created the scenery

The shame falls in shreds around me

All around me

Stuck in front of a blank page

Throw it away

Transmutation has never been easy

Pacing my room

I try to understand

(Turning all my blood to gold)

At times I wonder

I wonder

Wake up and shake the regret

I won't let myself fucking forget it

Can you extend an arm to help me up?

Remind me exactly how I've been fucking up

When all of my thoughts are telling me

I'm not enough

I'll take a hike

And when the wind kicks up the leaves

No one will know where to find me

At the edge of the forest

Crowded with hundreds of eyes that look through me

Their voices beckoning me in

I don't wanna come home yet

In deciphering introspection

I'm just trying to understand it