Black Bloody Showers. Lyrics

I lay in the flowers, I take black bloody Showers My noose still on the ceiling cause This feeling

Devours My innards, I kept skipping dinners

I know we all sinners And we all can't go to Heaven so we all cannot

Be winners Temptation is in everything, not Separated

By wedding rings, not separated by anything I Know from experience

Must get it from my mom and dad cause to Them love ain't serious

Or maybe I'm delirious But what happened in 2016 just made me furious

I guess that after three kids you get a little Curious

But it could have been the poverty cause Almost every night someone was talking about The

Lottery Dreams of what would happen with Some bread

Next to our pottery No wonder my own Brother went away, was charged

For robbery They say you can't buy happiness But with

Dope he was the happiest So I keep my rhymes the snappiest

In hopes I don't repeat it, that's why I'm so Defeated

Now I've been sipping on a bottle, I've been Down to my last drop

Addictions in my blood so tell me when it's Gonna stop

These feelings taking over when I get lost in My thoughts

I've been lying to my mama, please don't Worry call the cops

Your son's a runaway again, I pulled a parent Swap

My dad is unavailable, emotionally blocked My Mama done heard everything, she keeping

Her doors locked But I bet it was a shock

When I broke into her house, she should have Left it unlocked

I just wanted my shit, so why the fuck should I Feel mocked

Why the fuck am I the cock

I've been cut off from my family, why the fuck Should I be chopped

I'm looked at like a calamity, I see every photo Cropped

But I've been seeing things so differently, this Girl has changed my imagery

Cause I still wanna die but got away from what Was killing me

Don't think I'd be alive if this girl was never Feeling me

So fuck thanking God, my girl deserves the Thanks

Yeah the day before I met her I was thinking Bout a grave

Now I feel safer than I ever did dating all them Snakes

Haven't trusted no one since the day that I Was raped

But I finally escaped, yeah my trust has been Reshaped

And I'm finally awake