Help Me Lyrics

The days melt away based on how much I've eaten

Stuck with a sickness that couldn't be beaten

I'm trying to act normal but nothing's the same

Still, I fight till I go insane (sane)

Trying to cope with the war in my brain (brain)

Trying to live but the beast ain't tame (tame)

Trying to be good but the evil's engraved (graved)

Trying to be better but it's all the same

I make and I make and I make and I make and I make

But never time, I just make rhymes

Just these beats, just these songs

If I just made time and lived my life

The prison walls should fall before me

All involved would bow before me

The thoughts would gossip but not destroy me

Like they do

But I don't

And so they stay

And break my brain

And shove me down an endless hole

And my mind gets shrouded with blackened coal

The fire ignites my wretched soul

Spiraling, spiraling down

Heavy, oh heavy's the crown

Send me a note of your love

So I can sleep above the ground

My peers keep fading like the toking

While my tracks will go gold

Like King Midas groped them

That's a future that I'm patiently waiting for when

I can quit my job, go around the country touring

In the meantime, I spend every day at home and

Mixing beats to sell or keep and practice my flow and

Singing little love songs, trying to get a girlfriend

But they can't handle when I tell them that I'm broken

They're not missing much

I can't handle touch

Breakdown

Way too

Much

I- I'm no fun, I'm insane

I'm alone, but I'm to blame

My heart's on a chain in darkness and pain

Tachycardia in a busted vein

Dextrocardia, 'cause my heart has left me

Messy BS drama 'cause Skip was right, see

Lost in the wilderness, trapped in a cave

Either way

It's she I blame

It's me I blame

A story wrapped in anger

All I want is someone to hold me while I spiral in shame

Spiraling, spiraling down

Heavy, oh heavy's the crown

Send me a note of your love

So I can sleep above the ground

Every day I fuck up just a little bit more

When I'm feeling like a whore

For wanting some more love

Decorate my body so I have a pretty corpse

At the morgue

Going poor

Broken door

Huh?

Obsessed with disorder

Trying not to be a hoarder

I think I have a disorder

But it's just disorder in my mind

Rewind, that night was so bright

That I find my memory shaky

Shake me, make me wakey-wakey

Save me from this bad dream

I beg please, please, on my knees

I can't breathe, help me

Spiraling, spiraling down

Heavy, oh heavy's the crown

Send me a note of your love

So I can sleep above the ground