Delirium Tremens (Everything I Should Have Said to You) Lyrics

I don't need you, oh yes I need you

Don't believe you, now I believe you

I couldn't be bothered to see to

All these lies, yeah I deceived you

Never wanted to fucking leave you

Trigger finger makes my mind see through

Divide divine and now we're just two

What the fuck have I just come to

It's too late for for my friends I adore

They won't see I'm a drag anymore

I need new people to kill in my war

Searching for something new to die for

Neglected my wealth, hate myself, hid deep down

I'm a black hole and it is unpleasant to be around

Left penniless with no common cents

All my complacency has become so impoverished

Nostalgia buried in a cemetery

My journal reads like an obituary

I've become so weak and languid, I cry multilingual tears

Because crying is the same in every language, consumed by fear

Crumble to dust, muted in my screams

Cold my chorus, corroded in dreams

All of my life functions will cease

Inhale stale dust of You and me

I self sabotage with anxiety

Only now can my cold, dead heart see

Missing You always is a part of me

Like an amputated limb that won't stop when I start to bleed

And yet there's still dead hope I cling to

If I ever want to be devastated again, girl

I want it to by be You

It took disaster to open my eyes

Seeking sobriety in drugged lives

Through hazy lies but I want more

Than these damn predetermined goodbyes

How the fuck could it come this

A terrible mistake to let go of bliss

For something real, how can I heal

When the suture's torn from rusty steel

Buried under the weight of my own existence

I hurried the demise of Your persistence

Time with You incinerated in an instant

Sifting through ashes of Us, now You're distant

Love a get rich quick scheme that won't last

I've done all this before in my wretched past

For You mon amour, You mon amour, j'adore

Ohhhh goddammit I coulda done more

Riptides are flooding my insides

Drifting in a body not mine

Enamored with oblivion's embrace

I'd rather die than live with disgrace

In my sleep all of my best dreams

Are nightmares soaked in this goddamn grief

Oh god why couldn't I see You

Smothered from my selfishness, I need to

Know afterthoughts before they happen, I

Always look for ways to complicate my depression

I breath bitter air that makes women doubt me, I

Would rather die than love. But I did die. I did die. Please

Yeah I got knocked down but I made it through

Echoing silence, whispers of You

Like a gun in the mouth safer than talking

Or drunk driving safer than walking

You promised me

You promised me

You

Fucking promised me

How do I live

Without You

Let it bleed through

Still I miss you

You promised me

You promised me

Now all I see

It was all on me

It was all on me

It was all on me

It was all on me

It was all on me