Last Goodbye ft. Nate Lyrics

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home

Lost myself long ago, now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life

Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

This life is complicated

Explaining pain and how it causes so much devastation

At any brain that's untrained to prepare for it's attacks

To trap 'em in shame, they'd have no chance of fighting back

The strength of starting over, expired, and now the weak

Is fresh to strike with a plan, to make another body, deceased

From suicide that peeks, before it stalks at it's prey

It makes a person that's living, not want to stay or pray

Cause faith went out the window, soon as demons sold

My soul, to freeze up my body and make my heart cold

In my brain were angry characters that played on a set

The scene was not to make me happy, but to make me depressed

So much delusion opinions when it comes to someone with illness

Cause people never wanna listen or understand

I'm sick of all the hatred behind it 'thru fake support and the lies

I'm feeling suicidal, deep inside, and ready for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home

Lost myself long ago, now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life

Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

I needed help, but my songs

Were telling everyone to stay away and carry on

Was I wrong not to notice it, and was it too late?

Cause I feel the consequences picking on my lonely state

Paranoia building up to constantly annoy me with nerves

The only way for me to keep the pressure down was with words

Through complications, explaining what refuses to leave

My past that was behind me would use my future, to lead

Down to the darkness where my life was dark and I couldn't see

It almost took my existence away from me

No one to bare witness to satan when he makes commitments to murders

And gets away with it, spreading his evil even further, from hell

Anger got me twisted, these drugs got me addicted

All my lyrics exited out of my skull so death could visit

Since my birth, I hated life and wish I never existed

In this toxic existence, meanwhile I'm ready for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home

Lost myself long ago, now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life

Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

I've lost myself in this life

With no directions to escape from what was blocking the light

From shining on my reflection, am I cursed with mental illness?

Is it time for the holy sun to set on my image

Until I'm finished and buried from my sins and lessons?

Will I go to heaven or hell?, not knowing, got me stressing

And while I'm living with this pain, it's hard to keep it together

I'm like the board under satan's evil game of checkers

I want to kill him, but I'm breaking into millions of pieces

He's up, ahead of me, about to make his goal an achievement

Soon as he kills me with his weapon that is suicide

Is that the answer to put an end to what I feel inside?

Cause what's the point of living if this doesn't feel like life?

These days, life is shorter than some numbers on the dice

So answer me when I ask that question, is it time to die?

If so, then let's enjoy this ride cause I'm ready for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home

Lost myself long ago, now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life

Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

Cause I feel so far gone