Unexpected Fantasy Lyrics

We all have dreams and we all have fantasies

Some of us were brought up with no love and no families

Was one of them, as a kid I lost touch

With the world around me, support?, no such thing

Darkness around me made it hard for me to love things

Bitter and didn't give a fuck about anything

I had a fantasy of living peacefully

But the critical pain's what I've been given frequently

By the devil himself, I swear to god I was cursed

Medication, meditation, nothing seemed to work

All I knew was writing lyrics and exploiting the truth

Explaining every detail of what I've ever been through

Opportunities, I blew 'em when they came in my life

I used to trip, but now I think of failure as no surprise

When I sniff it, I was twisted and so close to be gone

But something told me to hold on, could it be an unexpected fantasy?

Pain changed me, I was forced to grow

If you come to say I have no support, I know

Death was my friend, I was close to go

Speaking out my life, yo, is all I know

Pain changed me, I was forced to grow

If you come to say I have no support, I know

Death was my friend, I was close to go

I'm still alive, could it be an unexpected fantasy?

We all have dreams and we all have fantasies

I fantasized on love, but no-one could ever handle me

So much anxiety, I never could keep

A relationship, I blamed me and always thought it was me

What I was battling inside, made it hard for me to speak

People called me a geek, an uncontrollable freak

Couldn't fit around a soul, when I tried, it would blow

In my face, couldn't keep myself under control

Many reasons to end it, so many things I resented

One of them was money, I spent it, it's evilness, I drove in it

And made a green attitude, I was known as the spinach

Being left alone was why my feelings were livid

I was rugged with a mood of never giving a fuck

It changed me, had to protect my heart from buzzards, they couldn't touch it

And hell, I was twisted and came close to be gone

But something told me to hold on, could it be an unexpected fantasy?

Pain changed me, I was forced to grow

If you come to say I have no support, I know

Death was my friend, I was close to go

Speaking out my life, yo, is all I know

Pain changed me, I was forced to grow

If you come to say I have no support, I know

Death was my friend, I was close to go

I'm still alive, could it be an unexpected fantasy?