Losing My Life Lyrics

I dont dream when I sleep

Ive never been a dreamer

And these tears on my lips

Never tasted sweeter

Wanna drown it all beneath

Bumping music on the speaker

Tryna fight my pain away

But Ive only been getting deeper

Only mistaken about

The way I saw the future

Never thought id ever fail

Now my life is losing humor

Trying to fit in with the crowd

Like Im following a rumor

Ive been living here for years

But I still feel like an intruder

Im living life period

Im always certain

I block emotion

But I can still feel a disturbance

Feel like Im losing my life

But I stay calm up on the surface

Living in the worl

But I still havent found my purpose

Feeling nervous

Maybe Im just walking circles

I fight and I fight

But I keep getting evil urges

What the hell is going on

I keep swerving like Im nervous

Every day I make effort

But every night Im feeling worthless

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life

My life was not

What I expected to be

No

I never did

What was expected of me

I know I fell off

I think I fell too hard

Cuz Im reminded every day

When I look at my scars

Like every single struggle I fought

Cut into my heart

Before I knew it

My character was already lost

Doing street hustle business

Thought Id never get caught

Ducking under bridges quick

To run away from the cops

Living quick and real young

But Id be feeling older

But I cant even trust a person

I keep checking my shoulder

Need to slow down

So I could breathe

And anchor my grip

Cuz at night I barely get by

I want to just quit

And sail ship

Forget this

Ill never be free

Even when I sail away

Im falling into the deep

Whats the point of even trying

When I cant even sleep

If youe really there God

Then bring me back to my feet

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life

Defeated by the struggle

Im tricked by the deceiver

My strength is running low

And everyday Im getting weaker

Burying my faults

Like Im using a concealer

Ive never been a devil

But Ive never been a preacher

Only trying to reach you

Hit you so I can teach you

Not trying to impeach you

Look at the bigger picture

Im trying to instill in you faith

To take with you

Im know that Im poor

But I aint ever been richer

Learned from the scripture

Had to learn the shit fast

Cuz my life is always burning away

It dont last

Never thought Id be alive

Or kicking today

After every single time

I almost called it day

Its called faith

The reason Im alive today

Its my strength

Keeping me aligned and brave

Its not hate

I know that imma be ok

Its my fate

To battle or just be enslaved

Thats my faith

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do

I feel like Im gonna lose

My life

I feel like Im losing my life