telephone Lyrics

Gums always sore waiting for my teeth to fall out

Always bringing up some shit I probably shouldn't talk about

Got all these thoughts running through the back of my mind

Circling like sharks

The blood thirsty kind

Writing stupid shit like

Why's peace so hard to find

Thought I wanted love but

I dont know

I guess I pined

I guess I pined

Not sure what to do

Going through the motions

Honestly at this point don't even have notions

I'd cry myself to sleep if there were any tears left to cry

I let them all fall then I wonder why

I'm sinking and I'm drowning and I'm finding it hard to breathe

I'm failing and I'm losing hope just wishing I could believe

Can't comprehend my own thoughts

It's all I ever think about

How I don't wanna be in this world

I'll never get to figure it out

What the hell is wrong with me

Why am I even here

To try and live happily

To spread the word to every ear

To live to the fullest each moment till death is near

Now I'm doing none of those

My body aches full of fear

I'm so tired and I'm exhausted

Cause these thoughts in my mind but I can't come off it

I hate this feeling but I love to feel

If I numbed it would I still be real

You're telling me to set goals

Find something to live for

But goals are something I don't have

Don't wanna do this anymore

I don't think you understand

You're telling me to try

Only reason I'm alive's cause I don't want to die

It's funny how death anxiety can be so vital

Suddenly so uselful when I'm feeling suicidal

My f- up yin and yang keeping me in line

One more cup of coffe and I'm sure I'll feel just fine

Sometimes I feel strange in my own skin

Like I shouldn't exist

Like I don't know who I am

Gotta hide my identity

Especially from myself

Don't worry baby

Put my feelings back on the shelf

Dusty now

I'm coughing and I choke

Lipstick stains and the smell of smoke

I feel so desperate but I'll never stoop so low

Always driving fast

Gotta take it real slow

My closets too full

There's no room for me in it

Can't seem to catch my breath

Please give me a minute

Feeling claustrophobic in this space

I'm filled with dread

Need escapism cause my mind's a prison

Want out of my head

I want out of my head

I'm so tired and I'm exhausted

Cause these thoughts in my mind but I can't come off it

I hate this feeling but I love to feel

If I numbed it would I still be real