Special Weather Lyrics

Crush, kill, destroy

Stress will deploy

Stretch, fill the void

with what fits

What's for sale?

What's it feel?

What's bliss?

Just a pill

Big to swallow but I did

Took a serotonin loan out

I'm still paying off my debt

You were holding me in bed

Hoped I'd wake to see tomorrow

Half happened, never slept

This past life I recollect

Take me back or keep me here

Just don't skip too far ahead

Cuz right now I'm blessed

But shit is not always like this

Never had it all, more's missing

We grieving who isn't here

And what's disappearing through the mist

I missed you, my mystery

My misuse, my misery companion

We are now what the next moment abandons

Once again, we'll go from strangers

To the closest it can get

Don't leave me stranded

But damn it's hard to feel special

When you're so cold sometimes

Sometimes you make me feel special

Worthy of this life

It's hard to feel special

When you're so cold sometimes

Sometimes I want to feel special

Worthy to have survived

So this is guilt

This has built

This has grown

This will wilt

Take me home

Stitch a quilt

Like my mother for her sister

Then her mother, then her father

I use words. I'm no author

I use notes, it's no opera

Skip the drama of the scene

These days

I barely wanna be seen

Masked up

If I don't make you feel seen

Then that sucks

Guess I'm just playing God

Made these songs in my image

Who'd a thought?

I know it's hard to feel special

When I'm so cold sometimes

Sometimes you want to feel special

With your right to opine

Go ahead