Social Anxiety Lyrics

(Social) I got that social anxiety

It's been keeping me trapped inside of my mind, of what house I live in

I just can't seem to enjoy the outdoors

I just can't stand the outdoors, it's like

I always been alone

So depressed inside this home

Can't do this on my own

I'm going crazy in this home, lord

Life is really hard

Will I live to see tomorrow?

I got that social anxiety

It all started when I was born in 96

My own parents that I needed the most would separate and dip

Forcing me to see the truth in their lies that would persist

Til I was traumatized in a memory that I could never forget

Drowning in sins, using pads to make amends with my brain

That was the reason why I couldn't make any friends

Surrounded by bullies that turned my kindness into rage

That would grow as I aged, like a mad man inside a cage

Feeling dazed, while wasting plenty of time

Being my own prisoner in the crib, and losing my mind

I hated people, and couldn't interact with them

Without feeling the nervousness go on attack again

To make you hype enough to switch to the violent type

For no one to hear what you're battling with on that silent mic

Delayed for words to sync as well as your speech

To talk recklessly in bundles, while collapsing while you walk

Is it worth to keep living here or to fade into the air?

Cause lately It feels like folks will never care 'til you disappear

The tears arises in your eyes when

You feel like hiding or dying from what you can't survive in

Started counting the days of suicide

And you were patiently waiting for that day to arrive

So you can stop breathing in this society

All that's left to blame is social anxiety

I always been alone

So depressed inside this home

Can't do this on my own

I'm going crazy in this home, lord

Life is really hard

Will I live to see tomorrow?

I got that social anxiety

Poor decisions that I made would turn to permanent mistakes

That I couldn't replace, and they eat me up to this day

But it's twice the weight, feels like I'm lifting weights

Up to 500 pounds of pain's dead weight

In this disgrace, that's slowly leading me to demise

Half of me is already feeling dead inside

Look in my eyes and see the darkness spark like my heart does

It's better without love, so it never has to re-build trust

In this cold world that I don't want to be in

Insomnia is keeping me from dying in my sleep from sins

Tryna make ends meet in what feels a cage

This poverty is keeping me crazed with this minimum wage

Feeling pissed cause I can't afford to live

Everything's expensive and sucks, almost close to giving up

Nobody knows the pain that flows 'thru my veins

I'm going insane in this world, mane

My only memories are flashbacks that plays back

Me trying to escape my problems by isolating from interacting

With humanity, by protesting to build more discretion

To avoid suffering from bullies that paints our reflections

Voila, my brain is done with it's plan to rest

By hiring depression to kill it slowly from the stress

My story is like a personal rivalry

Of battling with social anxiety

I always been alone

So depressed inside this home

Can't do this on my own

I'm going crazy in this home, lord

Life is really hard

Will I live to see tomorrow?

I got that social anxiety

I always been alone

So depressed inside this home

Can't do this on my own

I'm going crazy in this home, lord

Life is really hard

Will I live to see tomorrow?

I got that social anxiety