Before Then Lyrics

Hung up on my regrets and I can't stop remembering

The bad things I did, the shit that I said

25 years went by, I'm just now learning what I'm like

And those intricacies inside of my head

It's kind of hard to see

If life is better for me

Old habits stress me out

I'm going up and down

Look back on lives well spent

My lies I still repent

Work hard to reinvent

But that's all before then

16 minutes go by and snap back to reality

This happens a lot and I can't speak

Suicidal thoughts no more as I lay down on the cold floor

As I look up in defeat and feel my back's sore

I know it's hard to tell

If I'm still doing well

And see how far I've come

Nights like these, I feel dumb

Self-destruct and repeat

Fall down and scrape my knees

Survive and bleed the scene

It's hard to just be me

This time next year, I'll send some letters

Some near and some far, I'll wish you'll do better

I hope you'll grow and soon it turns winter

Snow falls again, but I'll be back before then