Behind My Smile Lyrics

Smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I wrestle with my inner voice

Making mistakes, it's not by choice

The words I hide behind my smile

Beneath the surface, it's been a while

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I step into the room with a grin so wide

But behind these eyes, there's a storm inside

I'm hiding my pain, ain't gon' let it show

In this world of shadows, I'm just putting on a show

I wear this mask every single day

Hiding my demons, keeping them at bay

Smiles on my face, but it's all a disguise

Deep inside, I'm drowning in these cries

I'm dancing on the stage under neon lights

But I'm fighting these battles every single night

Don't judge a book by its cover, fuck what they say

I'm hiding my depression in the light of day

I wrestle with my inner voice

Making mistakes, it's not by choice

The words I hide behind my smile

Beneath the surface, it's been a while

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I wake up every morning, put on my best attire

But inside, my soul's on fire

It's like a burning pyre

I'm fighting these demons, I'm fighting my fears

But all you see is laughter, all you hear are cheers

I'm the life of the party, the joker of the crew

But behind closed doors, I'm feeling so blue

I'm hiding my anxiety behind this mask

In this masquerade of life, I'm playing the perfect act

I'm the master of deception, a puppet on a string

But in the world of illusions, I can't let them see

I'm wearing this smile like a badge of pride

But in the depths of my soul, I'm just trying to hide

I wrestle with my inner voice

Making mistakes, it's not by choice

The words I hide behind my smile

Beneath the surface, it's been a while

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die

I'm smiling on the surface, but it's all a fucking lie

I say that I am fucking happy, but I just wanna die