euthanistic Lyrics

Spark up, light one, it's a habit now

Group therapy for us, it gets passed around

It's euthanistic, takes my feelings and then kills it

A depressive epi-pen, that's why I keep it in my jacket now

Welcome to this stage show called life

You might fuck up and forget a line but it's alright

Maybe it's them lows in life that teach us

Maybe it's the ignorant people that wanna be us

When they don't know what happens in yo life

They just see yo posts with all the smiles and the likes

They just see yo wrist that look like stars with the ice

They don't see you down and all alone late at night

People see my swag and think I'm never down or fuck up

I been through a lot, way before I had the come up

They ain't see me dealin' on the corner with the gun up

They weren't there to help when Quan and Jimmy tried to run up

But now they see me and my stuff is all up in they feed

And now they tryna be my homies, they up under me

Can't avoid them, they be tryna steal the vibe 'way from me

That's when I hear the black and mild, it be calling to me (Yeah, uh)

Spark up, light one, it's a habit now

Group therapy for us, it gets passed around

It's euthanistic, takes my feelings and then kills it

A depressive epi-pen, that's why I keep it in my jacket now

Spark up, light one, it's a habit now

Group therapy for us, it gets passed around

It's euthanistic, takes my feelings and then kills it

A depressive epi-pen, that's why I keep it in my jacket now

If I explain, do you think that you'll get me?

If not then tell me honestly, don't try to put it gently

It's the most toxic people that can be the most friendly

And this the way that I felt

I shit on niggas, royal flush cuz that's the way I was dealt

I'm the hottest in my city, stand too close and you'll melt

I'm feeling lucky like a Google search or mascot of Celts

If you don't like me, get up on yo knees and speak to the belt

Or you can take it off me

I rap about the life I wish I lived, I'll say it softly

Yeah I've got friends but I've got trust issues, I'm scared they'll cross me

I get attached to toxic people, think my heart is faulty

And when I'm down that's when I let the blunt and lighter call me

There are some days when I don't know if imma live to 40

Cuz I know most the shit I'm mixing, it ain't healthy for me

My mind is racing, heart is racing, feel like Nic Latifi

Wish I could slow it down for a minute

Late nights I just drive around for a minute

Put my feelings over a beat

With a grinder and some backwoods in the passenger seat

And watch as Mary takes me over and the feelings from me

This shit ain't healthy and I know but it's the way I'm living

How the aroma kills my feelings is so euthanistic

I lost some years out to depression, guess my youth I missed it

I hit 120 on the highway, almost got a ticket

And rappin' bout this type of stuff makes me feel mixed emotions

Cuz I know people care about my life and where I'm going

When I'm sad, instead of therapy I drown it in a bottle

And that's the type of life I wouldn't want my friends to follow

It's hard to feel this down while knowing people that look up to me

That's partially the reason why I'm so vulnerable publicly

Listen to my words, it's OK not to be perfect

But how can I be preachin'[ that when I still haven't learned it?

And how can I be rappin' this when both my lungs are burnin'?

Sometimes I've got imposter syndrome, feel I haven't earned this

For the people in my congregation, I'm done with my sermon

Do as I say, not as I do, keep in mind your life is worth it

Spark up, light one, it's a habit now

Group therapy for us, it gets passed around

It's euthanistic, takes my feelings and then kills it

A depressive epi-pen, that's why I keep it in my jacket now

Spark up, light one, it's a habit now

Group therapy for us, it gets passed around

It's euthanistic, takes my feelings and then kills it

A depressive epi-pen, that's why I keep it in my jacket now