heavenside Lyrics

Told myself

I could do this on my own and then I sold my soul

Down the River Styx within a boat, I live in hell

Coz I'm walking round on heavenside without a home

Without a home

Told myself

I could do this on my own and then I sold my soul

Down the River Styx within a boat, I live in hell

Coz I'm walking round on heavenside without a home

Without a home

Told myself

Sold my soul

Live in hell

Without a home

Teach told me recognise the problem and you'll beat it

How'ma s'posed to do that when I'm too afraid to see it

Battery irreplaceable it's boutta be depleted

System overheated tryna find out where all of the heat is

I'm in the desert tryna find a place

Bags under the eyes just a feature of my face

I thought we were the same but it just wasn't the case

I just make a beat cry a little and erase

Spend a week tryna fiddle with the bass

But I can't get all these rhythms out my brains

I feel like a defect I'm fiending for respect I'll never earn

While I'm on this path where I never learn, it's tiring

Beg for your attention when I never gave you mine

I don't wanna be pretending all the time

I should treat you better

Told myself

I could do this on my own and then I sold my soul

Down the River Styx within a boat, I live in hell

Coz I'm walking round on heavenside without a home

Told myself

What I don't know

I'll kill myself

Or drown in hope

And when I fade into forgotten dreams

This forlorn name will mean almost nothing

It's my mistake

And that's it

And that's it

Oh

I left me alone

In the house that I settled in

I never win

Oh no

While you kiss your wedding ring

Of heavenly bone

You lost one, so try you and find another

They don't like you coz you treat em like a number

Think you're so damn smart, everyday you're getting dumber

Talking to myself I'm getting numb-er

My jealousy rendered me losing all my love of

The thing that gives me cover

I realise it's more of a fall than a come up

Look up, the sky's running clear

Reposition if you wanna rediscover

The bridges never burnt coz they never really cared

Boy, you're delusional if you still think there's something there

Sat in the wreckage left behind by your typhoon

That's where they're gonna find you, and you don't have a prayer

Ay, don't you ghost me, I know you know me

Your face look ghostly, you're scared

Your patchwork quilts got a tear, boy you hear me?

I'll never disappear, I'll never let you be one of them

I'm preaching to the choir, you lack the fire