All I Bring Is Shame Lyrics

With eyes wide shut did you expect much

A kid 16 stolen car burnt clutch

30 of the limit, yeah losing traction to the sludge

My car goes up the boundary yeah that's the first time that I lost touch

In my brain or something it's still a stain on my name

Try to reach out to someone but all that's left pain

Are we truly on our own in this life

You bring a kid out who can't walk and put his neck to the scythe and you

Ask how he's doing, does he have a job yet

You’re always locked in your room, yeah are you upset

It's not like you would even understand if I explained

A father's expression is numb when you just bring shame

I had a conversation with the devil in the undertow

No matter how hard you work you will still someone that you loathe

Yeah I know I will be always someone that I just hate

At least I can admit so I put up with the weight

I'm just a burden, just a burden

Everything’s too much I’m still hurting

Im uncertain, im uncertain

If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing

Every time I leave it’s not working

I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking

I'm sick of always living a lie

A life tied to the noose yeah always bad news

Do I stay do I go, yeah I never can choose

Making friends with the pills it's the same

See another psych who has to see a paper note to know my name

Give too much empathy, you'll be tread on

If I'm not careful I'll end up gone

Can't stand up for myself when I tell them I just need a break

Keep on pushing on my mental state I'll end up in a shallow grave

And I’ll sink, sink into somewhere I don't know

See my life down here and I'll say please go

I don't want to know about something that I will never be

There's a heavy weight on my chest and I think I've met defeat, alone

Feel the hate peel the skin, just a heretic within

Or at least your god would say

What's the problem yeah what's wrong thought I made this one strong

Chuck him down to the side, see what's messed up inside

I'm just a burden, just a burden

Everything’s too much I’m still hurting

Im uncertain, im uncertain

If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing

Every time I leave it’s not working

I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking

I'm sick of always living a lie