Lookin At... Lyrics

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah

Lookin for a place to rot

Cuz I started taking double shots and now my bubble is about to pop

Put me in a shuttle need to isolate myself a lot

Deep up in the struggle I've been living in a state of shock

Everyday, I'm sedated in my head space

Lookin and I see that I changed

It's in my damn face

Bags around my eyes, cuz I carry on with life and it's fast paced

Doing all my things like a past date

Cuz lately I'm behind on my tasks

Missing opportunities, cuz I'm smokin the grass

This is nothing new to me, now they put me on blast

But I smile beautifully, while I'm wearing my mask

Cuz I brag one second then the next I'm mad

I been wasting all this precious time that I have, tryna last long

Wasted everyday while I'm sitting making these sad songs

In my bag, this the last call to my past wrongs

Lookin at it, lookin at it

All my sober thoughts turn to panic

Lookin at it, lookin at it

Always overthink I can't manage

Lookin at it, lookin at it

Rather sit alone in my casket

Lookin, lookin, lookin at it

Feeling too low, I ain't getting past it

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah

Fearing all expression, and stuck inside the deepest hole

I been heavy stressing so I had to take a new approach

Then I started upping on the dose so I'm never low

Lotta tension everywhere I go, tryna cut my throat

Never spoke

Flyin towards the wall, where I'm most alone

Then I'm walking through the coldest road, to the golden throne

Ain't nobody know me so I gotta hit the shoulder roll

And then I set my legacy in stone, I'm like Cody Rhodes

Stuck inside a nightmare

But I'm fighting out and I'll be sitting in my high chair

Running off the fire, and I'll do it till I'm white haired

But I gotta live life fair, in the night, wanna die there

But I got the sight, my eyes clear

Reaching for the light, that's quite rare

This is when I decide where

I'm boutta go next

Look at my phone there's no text

I'm finally in peace no foes up in my crow nest

Lookin at it, lookin at it

All my sober thoughts turn to panic

Lookin at it, lookin at it

Always overthink I can't manage

Lookin at it, lookin at it

Rather sit alone in my casket

Lookin, lookin, lookin at it

Feelin too low, I ain't gettin past it

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah

Lookin at myself in the face

I been lookin at the times that changed

I been lookin at the

Lookin and I'm feelin ashamed

I been lookin at the man I became

Yeah yeah