Pills Lyrics

Another sleepless attempt to be insomniac

I'm a trapped, miserable drug fiend with a mean manic that attacks

Seconds away from feeling cardiac

I seem to desecrate my heart with my feelings 'til it was out of wack

Started with ziprasidone, like I'll just try a dose of that

Hours later, I end up snapping like an maniac

Embarrassing my life, knowing that it's already full of crap

Looking to overdose, but instead, I write depressing raps

It's like I need a break from life in order to relax

But ziprasidone is killing me with side effects

Head twitching like I just snapped on my damn self

Too independent and cocky to understand help

Too much dosage, my body hates my existence

Impatient, waiting for me to die cause it's sick of me trippin'

Somebody stop J from taking pills cause he's addicted

Next thing you know, he'll cut his brain out to see if it's twisted

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

Can't live, can't live, can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills

Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills

Maybe just one more pill, what the heck

It could take away the stress, and just maybe I'll get some rest

But depression still picks with me 'til I don't feel nothing left

"Hey J, keep taking pills and come follow me to death"

Or maybe if I drink instead, I'll be more sane than insane

But ain't no telling what I'll feel from the pain

With this B-disorder, I'll be the next devil king

To make more people suffer in my brain, filled with swings

That would swing on out of control when you least expect

Zipras in full effect, it's what I would take next

At nights when I couldn't sleep from doses I took at dawn

I'm so full of energy, that I set a date with insomnia

I'm so dizzy, I forgot to refill my prescription

I'll get it tomorrow if I don't end up feeling drowsy again

I hear my demons screaming at me all at once 'til I sin

"Just take another pill, J, it's only quarter to 10"

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills

Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills

So as I force another pill down, my body shook up like, ah

Seconds pass, and my brain wants to flat out explode

It's no secret that I'm an loner with a lab in my skull

Inventing skills with some lyrics that are sad when I flow

I need some help cause my status is on "FML"

Too much stress from taking pills, but I need 'em to heal

But still I feel like a waste with a skeleton face, to look at

How sad reality is, it made me look back

To my past that I'm still in, nothing's changed but pills

Stuck in conditions, where it's hard to get my brain to chill

Nothing to do, but pour my whole entire life down the drain

Feel like a zombie, hypnotized by demons, calling my name

Until I'm weak or fall into a deep sleep, once again

For them to tell each other that they want to put me to end

That's if they ever have the guts to destroy me for good

For me to wake up next to pills in the devil's neighborhood

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills

Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills

Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills