Backwards Mind Lyrics

A backwards mind

Mixed with lost thoughts from a lost past

Makes a person go crazy inside

While tryna balance out in this life

That's a backwards mind

That's a backwards mind

Mind twisted, but I'm just too stubborn to fix it

Just another episode playing, no-one to witness

I'm sick of this world cause I'm always living in sickness

Feeling so distant like I'm non-existent

My whole life, I've been a square that didn't fit anywhere

Cause no one cares, (Nah), when my tears fall

I have the mind of an alien that doesn't exist

Couldn't fit in cause I was different

From the people that would judge me wherever I went

I was broken up inside and I had to re-invent

But the outside world was tearing me apart

By breaking my focus, so that I couldn't restart

I needed some help, I was a wounded shark

That needed help finding light cause I was in the dark all my life

And my mind wasn't right

Leading me to the wrong directions, there was nothing in sight

So what's the point of this life?, why do I put up a fight?

Why do I always have problems sleeping at night?

Why do I act like I'm alright when deep inside, I'm going crazy?

Feeling suicidal, man, can anybody save me and my backwards mind?

And my backwards mind?

Promised dreams disappeared when I lost myself

Been confidential and I've always kept my thoughts to myself

When I failed, it was nobody's fault but myself

But I just wouldn't talk when I needed some help

Cause I felt like I could handle everything by myself

But I couldn't, so I tried to make a plan for myself

But it backfired, then I flew right on the shelf

I felt excruciating pain, it was bad for my health

Cause I kept it inside, it was destroying my mind

Keeping me from writing thoughts, I was lost and blind

I felt bad for myself, then I started not to care

And the only thing for me to do was disappear

I was a broke man, surrounded by rich pioneers

They looked down on people like me with a stare

The people won't accept a person with a disability

They look at us and say that we don't have the ability

To do anything, and we don't get respectability

I'm mentally insane, bipolar is killing me

I'm literally a mess, dealing with the stress

Moving side to side like a game of chess

I feel the pain in my chest, will it be my last breath?

Somebody come and save me cause I just wanna rest in peace, without a backwards mind

Without a backwards mind