BLOOD ON MY HANDS Lyrics

If I showed you who I used to be

Would you look at me any differently?

(Would you look at me any differently?)

If I told you the secrets I keep

Would you keep 'em for me?

(Would you even keep 'em for me?)

If I were to drown in my suffering

Would you end my misery?

Been walkin' down this lonely road

Bitter and cold

Tryna save my soul

Payin karma's toll

My life's regrets replay in my mind

Like all the time

(Like all the time)

I'll tell you that I'm doin' fine

Even tho I ain't fine

(I ain't fine)

My soul's been weighin' heavy

My mindscape is my damn worst enemy

Constantly reminding me I should just end it already

Finished the bottle of henny for this trauma I bury

Got the keys to the Chevy

Now I'm doing 120

Tryna drive steady

On the I-80

Steering wheel shaking like crazy

Lowkey fishtailing cuz it's so damn rainy

Wondering "what's got into me lately?"

Pullin over with enough time barely

Starting to dig deep into my memory

Taking me all the way back to January

I got blood on my hands

Tryna find an escape plan

Crawling out through all the broken glass

Wishin' death woulda crossed my path