I Refrain ft. Ehnara Lyrics

My child

And there you go, back at it again

We pray and think about you when you out late with your friends

As much we meant to talk about yo livelihood and future

You just set to get upset, arguin' with rudeness

Watch yo tone boy

What's that about?

Why you get defensive?

And why you startin' quarrels, when we ask you questions?

We brought you to this world so you better not forget this

You know me raisin' my words tremble my heart

And we are faced with uncertainty

Because yours is ours we concerned for you

You got a degree a while back so where's the work for you?

Have you been searchin' through?

For your insurance too

Wonderin' if we got work to do, to keep supportin' you

Hoy, we're not finished we have more for you

And we do- we don't, HOY

We don't wanna talk over you, listen

For you and yo younger siblings we run that money

You're lucky that you're up in this country

Back home man we had less than this

I was yo age payin' the bills

Childhood grindin' my time daily for meals

And matter fact, you wanna take my uniform and all of my tools?

Why don't you go drive a 18 wheeler?

See how it feels to be bigger?

Fixin' the engines and that's just only part of the job

That's real life skills, that's somethin' you probably not-

No, I'm tryin' to talk to him right now

Either way I hope you know that we'll keep workin' for you

No we don't have all the answers 'cause we came here when we were young

Made sure you had the things we didn't have when we begun

And we won't be here forever

We hope you read the message in our silence

'Cause deep inside we cryin'

But I refrain

'Cause you my child and I love you

I know one day you'll understand

'Cause you my child, you goin' through it

Trust me I'll understand

'Cause you my child and I love you

I know one day you'll understand

'Cause you my child, you goin' through it

Trust me I'll understand

Ahhh shit, here we go again

I was only plottin' M's, meetin' ends with my friends

I self-criticize about how I'm scared of the future

It makes me realize how I should've prepared for it sooner

I mean I, oh ok I'm talkin' back now?

And don't compare me with my peers who got the purest of careers

Or pursued graduate school yet, why am I still here?

You ain't the only ones who thought degrees would make us problem free

I'm faced with uncertainty

I know that mines is yours it's all I think about

Sometimes I ponder you would prosper if you lived without

Me and my dependence on your payroll

It's shameful but this ain't back in the days though

This a different time, different place, different vibe, different chase

Chase my dream while I make you proud I wish they paved a lane

There ain't no play by plays

Scrhollin' timelines day by day

They got it made, are they doin' somethin' I'm not?

Why I feel like I was tossed, deep side of the pool?

Why I look up to you two but you look to me for the tools?

Why you talk to everybody all about my school?

With a little disappointment in how I structure my views?

Or the paths that I choose?

Major switches in education

Am I your child or am I somebody to fulfill yo expectations?

Am I wild or am I a reflection of what kills and makes you anxious?

Worthwhile to bring this up, why can't we spill these conversations?

I don't ask questions 'cause I'm stubborn, scared and young

Rushin' life, gettin' stressed even though life has just begun

But I don't dare talk back 'cause you've given me all of yours

I just wanna give it all back times a million, plus more

But that's impossible

How do I repay someone who gave me life?

This music is my future life so through this I'm indebted

They say the ember yo parents once had is embedded on you

So I guess you get to say that they bet it on you

So I refrain

'Cause you my parents and I love you

Right now I don't understand

'Cause you my parents I respect you

I know that you understand

'Cause you my parents and I love you

One day I will understand

'Cause you my parents I respect you

I know that you understand

This one's to all mothers

This one's to all fathers

I know you gave up so much

But I can't live your dreams without regret

This one's to all immigrants for the first generation

All this pressure to be better

Can I exchange patience instead?

'Cause you my parents and I love you

I hope that you understand

'Cause you my parents I respect you

I know that you understand

'Cause you my parents and I love you

I hope that you understand

Some day

How long do you think you can do this by yourself?