Not Today Lyrics

She can't pinpoint where it started

She just knows she can't leave her best friend broken-hearted

When she said for life she meant it

He made her laugh, brightened her day

She looked forward to a future as fiancés

But she'd been having feelings she couldn't admit

Something sparked, some interaction that she'd seen

Something she'd hidden, ashamed to be

She looks back on missed opportunities

But now that she knows

Which way does she go?

Cuz she knows that she loves him

But she doesn't want to leave him

But there's a part that she's fighting

A secret she's hiding away

Not today

Now she's finally awaken

To the path she's not taken

That she wants to explore

Won't give up everything for

A war inside

Because this straight woman's bi

Her head's a mess, she still loves him

She's stuck in a dilemma that she can't win

Each path in front of her leads to regret

She feels angry, filled with rage

She'd been taught that this was wrong all through her coming of age

She mourns the experience she'll never get

Now with this knowledge she sees things that she denied

The genuine belief that bisexuality was a lie

The things she said in an effort to justify

But now that she knows

Which way does she go?

Cuz she knows that she loves him

But she doesn't want to leave him

But there's a part that she's fighting

A secret she's hiding away

Not today

Now she's finally awaken

To the path she's not taken

That she wants to explore

Won't give up everything for

A war inside

Because this straight woman's bi

She will bury this back down

Maybe he'll understand

Find some way to forget

Is there a way that she can

Cut out her feelings it's time to restart

She doesn't know

Which way to go

Cuz she knows that she loves him

But she doesn't want to leave him

But there's a part that she's fighting

A secret she's hiding away

Not today

Now she's finally awaken

To the path she's not taken

That she wants to explore

Won't give up everything for

A war inside

Because this straight woman's bi