in august Lyrics

I've dwelled on it for far too long

In drunken speeches across the lawns

To strangers at parties, the plus-one is getting rowdy

I turned 18 on a sterile bed

My blood was drawn, my stomach fed

Happy birthday to the new adult

You get one extra phone call back home

I'm sarcastic in saying that I'm grateful for that day

And you're evil for saying that you're glad I went away

I met myself on the edge

The ledge that would've left me dead

Teetering on the end of a cliff that's slowly crumbling

My parents spoke for the last time

On my grand return to life

At least my crisis brought people together, I'm glad

But I'm sarcastic in saying that I'm grateful for that day

And you're evil for saying that you're glad I went away

I'm so sorry daddy

You hate to see your little girl so sad

You walk around the block with me

Before you let me go on my own

I cried to you mommy

Your little girl is smaller now in your arms

You point out the color of the sky

It's beautiful

The violet hour in August

I hold myself accountable to a fault

I don't wanna be afraid anymore

Of what I'm capable of doing to someone else

Or what I'd do to myself even more

I hope when I come back I'm not met with stones

Thrown at the doorsteps of both my homes

I hope when I come back you'll have forgiven me

And let me stay the night again

I'm sarcastic in saying that I'm grateful for that day

And you're evil for saying that you're glad I went away