big clouds Lyrics

Self doubt like big clouds

All in my head so loud, so loud

I can't escape, the flaws in my brain

Breaking me down, down, down, down, down

Breaking me

Heaven

Breaking me

Heaven

They say you can change

But I can't say the same

The same

Yeah

Lost myself in past thoughts for the fifth time today

See the beauty in the pain- like a avalanche

Paralyzed- vision fading, full of cataracts

Buried in the past got me stressed dunno how to act

I'm talking with Depression

Get out of control now I'm hoarding all the blessings

Talk me out of everything and anything I wanted

Unworthy for a check, clout, the woman I had love in

My life fades away

Everything I've wanted has been too good for me

Too good for me, too good for me

Everything I wanted has been too good for me

I wake you up for a minute

Do you really love me? It's an avalanche of my thoughts,

3 in the morning

You look and do a headscratch, babe your adorable

Believe in yourself- now you're doin okay

I'm crying on your shoulder I can't bear all the weight, no

You don't understand how my deaths on the way

Baby I can't do this much longer I don't see another way, uh-uh

My life fades away

Everything I've wanted has been too good for me

Too good for me, too good for me

Everything I wanted has been too good for me

Pitter patter

Nothing matters

Check the news

Fox TV says

the world gon' end

Before our children have their children

Well all be dead

The forecast is a flood, tsunamis in view

But I look out the window

See the sky still blue ah

The sky's still blue ah

Listen- did you really want it

Can you really be about it

I'm upset, I'm feeling like I'm nothing

Can't be blessed

I'm running out of lifelines

I'm at my limit these bad thoughts are winning now

Self doubt

Like big clouds

All in my head

So loud, so loud

I can't escape, the flaws in my brain

Breaking me down down down down down

Making me

Heaven

Breaking me

Heaven

They say you can change

But I can't say the same, the same

They say you can change

But I can't say the same, the same

Yeah

My life fades away

Everything I've wanted has been too good for me

Too good for me, too good for me

Everything I wanted has been too good for me

Too sentimental so I'm told

I just wanna chill on the porch and grow old

with you

Too scared when I face the unknown

Bursting into tears as I fold

I'm half the man you were promised- you're

Too good for me

Everything I wanted has been too good for me