The Emperor's Jade Lyrics

I'm still holding on to the person I used to be

My favorite time of the day is when I'm asleep

I ain't even notice I was going through it

I couldn't eat, I keep walking, I've been calloused on the soles of my feet

Smoking in my dorm, waiting to go home for a week

Back at the crib and me and my family hardly speak

Shit I used to enjoy really don't feel the same to me

I was just a kid, when I get all these responsibilities

So I just blew it off, like let's go get snow cones and go to the park

Instead of studying for finals trying to get results

You ever look at a sunset and it felt dull?

I got so many pictures but I can't feel one

All of these memories but I can't feel one

My favorite activities no longer feel fun

So I ducked off for a little, I'm trying to heal some, trying to heal some

Because I'm jaded

Every day I'm getting extra faded and adding up to the plan to get myself up off the pavement

I done put my all into this shit, been stressing and straining

Done made a song for every pound of weight that I ain't been gaining

I tell old homies that say I switched, I evolved I ain't changed

I just realized we on some different shit not in the same lane

And I'm not saying I'm better just that we can no longer hang

Cause you tryna stay local, I'm tryna be where we can't pronounce the name

I'm still holding on to the person I used to be

My favorite time of the day is when I'm asleep

I ain't even notice I was going through it, I couldn't eat

I keep walking, I've been calloused on the soles of my feet

Meditating in the forest off the path near a creek

I'm so in tune that I can hear the weeping willow speak

On a higher plane of consciousness nobody could take from me

My prana's all the fuck that I need, on G,

I keep the golden secrets around my neck trapped in a prism

Spent my summers at the lazy lizard school of hedonism

2CB, a blunt of green, distort and fisheye lens my vision

We drop tabs, them fireflies look like stars that you be wishing on

Collective conscious, my peripheral, tryna pass the wisdom on

Knockin' on the sandman's door, asking mother nature, "is he home?"

Well if you see him, let him know I got a proposition for him

Met his cousin death, he assaulted me, now my ego gone

My attitude changing, I'm just tryna have a peaceful home

Higher self always with me so I don't ever feel alone

It's answers in the trees, come on, hurry you can leave your phone

Heavens in the simple like that first spritz of a new cologne

First semester me and Dexter broke down at Audubon Park

I seen that halo around his head and I knew that he would go far

Dressed like a substitute teacher but I got taken to class

Conversations I never had cause it was locked in a vault

Jag pushed me to the gym and shit, look now my weight gaining up

Si told me go with my heart, now I got a show coming up

Man, Bounty sent me them beats and ain't ask for shit in return

Sheem did the shots for the low and I ain't have money to burn

T told me get all my feelings cause it's a bag to be earned

Ghost introduced me to the gang, got so much love for that boy

I watch him produce and think, man I got so much to learn

But this shit started with Krunch, man I don't give a fuck what you heard

In Joyce Heights chilling, we was high as a bird

And that Genesis spank horses like a jockey in third

Found that golden gate man and that shit set me free

I'm in alignment, don't go with the flow, it goes with me

I'm still holding on to the person I used to be

My favorite time of the day is when I'm asleep

I ain't even notice I was going through it, I couldn't eat

I keep walking, I been calloused on the soles of my feet