Despite Everything Lyrics

I been gettin' better at keeping my pain hidden

People think they're clever when they hit us with treasons

I been realer than death, meanwhile they been mislayin' reason

Oh no

Havin' to witness my family die

It's been like that since I became alive

There been no branch that hadn't a blight

Never had rest, my pen bled from plight

Cannot get back and I'm scared of my fright

Had to sit back, all my pangs had to hide

Never been blessed, ain't no Vatican sign

Hands on my head like it ain't by my side, woah

When money wasn't there whatsoever

My mother had to fast so I'd weather

No running from no twinge, no Atalanta

Had to accept falling prey to cataclysms (for real)

Despite everything we're alive

Despite everything we survived

And we are alive

Despite every death, we survived

Aunt off the coke

She made my grandpa feel less of a man

Then he killed himself while he was alone

Woe

The reason why he did that shit

Is 'cause he believed he wasn't alone

Tho

Nobody could do anything

At night he was there, was gone in the morn

Know

Those times done made a whole chain

Of deaths in a race like Elesin's throne

Uh

Hadn't a thing, raw beans in our plates

Candles on shelves as lamps had a break

Water was cold, say memories fade

They partially did but made us afraid ('fraid)

I'm paranoid and it's not a phase (phase)

Diggin' the void, "won't leave 'em a trace" (trace)

Couldn't show throes, we hidden our pain (pain)

'Member the morgue, life keeps addin' graves (graves)

Yeah, but, anyways

I'm fightin' my demons

I really been walkin' through the fucking flames

And I've never kept anyone 'round or within 'em

I'm puttin' my soul in this bitch like Saint Francis

And wish our targets would come and then be goal

I gotta keep livin' and keep it a hunnid

'Cause people fin' hunt us as, shit, I won't give up

You know, they betrayed us but now

We're not grudgin' with 'em

I gotta keep goin', hey, gotta keep goin' (go)

Gotta keep goin', hey, gotta keep goin' (for real)

Yeah, you know, gotta keep goin'

Ain't nothing new, just gotta keep goin'

(Yeah, you know-know-know, gotta keep goin')

(Ain't nothing new-new-new, gotta keep goin')