for the first time Lyrics

i feel like im dying slow and painful deaths

ill just be a ghost im right below your bed

im discarded again i been tossed to the side

i just try to figure how to end my life

guess that i should think of it before i try

i just need a plan that really works this time

like before tonight in the black gray sky

i stare at the stars they look just like your eyes

for the first time

i think that im really happy with my life

yeah i sent you a text and you told me to die

but if nothing else its like atleast i tried

for the last time

nothing else will ever go wrong in my life

yeah im tired and scared and it ends tonight

would you even care if you found out i died?

hide my face

i feel like theres no way im not a disgrace

yeah i break everything and i snatch it away

anything i do will always earn your hate

close my eyes

it just wont exist if i ignore my life

and im calling again in the dark of the night

you wont ever answer and you’re probably right

for the first time

i think that im really happy with my life

yeah i sent you a text and you told me to die

but if nothing else its like atleast i tried

for the last time

nothing else will ever go wrong in my life

yeah im tired and scared and it ends tonight

would you even care if you found out i died?