Devils Advocate Lyrics

Sit here till my lungs are raw till my liver caves in

I want to die anyways who gives a fuck about depression

The ringing in my ears is so damn loud

It's better to sit here and think I never made my family proud

I love being on the back burner of everybody's life

Emily's just a pawn she's never be somebody's wife

She'll never be somebody's everything the demand is just too high

So I'll just sit here dying cause it's better than life

Everyone's got to feel sad somedays

I just wish my turn wasn't everyday

Sick and tired of being played

By people I keep in my praise

Sad girl vibes on repeat

All I wanted on repeat

Sza special on repeat

Wanting my heart to skip a beat

Beat me blue beat me senseless If I was actually was senseless

Wouldn't feel this useless wouldn't fuck with this none sense

Anytime I'm so numb I think it's the worst it could be

Just give it a week it gets worse as you can see

Cause I'm fucked

I'm really fucking disturbed

I make mistakes over and over when will I fucking learn

I want to be loved when will it be my turn

The day the world turns over or burns

That's when I'll be loved that's when life will be fun

When it's madness only please trust me on this one

That's when I'll learn maybe that's when I'll learn

Fuck man I say let it burn let it burn

Why is it whenever anything happens it takes me 6 years to recover

Too weak to do it on my own always searching for a lover

If I was you and seen me I'd go hide under the covers

Steer clear of this bitch she was raised by a fucked up mother

I'd rather be alone to start with

Than thinking my friends are targets

The way you bitches betray me makes me want to be heartless

Make me want to off myself to prove to you that I've lost it

Maybe sit and be a bitch for a bit play devils advocate

Disappear for a day or a night shine it in a new light

I'm just dramatic and an addict scared of flight

Need to shut my mind straight off to try to have a good time

If I lived outside of chaos it just wouldn't feel right

It's actually fucked how you get so used to the pain you can't cry

I want to feel release so bad my only option is die

I'm so sorry if this ever reaches the fucking light of day

I try to keep it in I try to act like I'm all play

But I'm fucked

I'm really fucking disturbed

I make mistakes over and over when will I fucking learn

I wanna be loved when will it be my turn

The day the world turns over or fucking burns

That's when I'll be loved that's when life will be fun

When it's madness only please trust me on this one

That's when I'll learn maybe that's when I'll learn

Fuck man I say let it burn let it burn