Testing Lyrics

I'm testing the waters, trying to find a way to be okay

I still think about you every day, trying to find a way up from the down

Testing the waters, I hope I don't drown

Trying to make peace with the fact that you're deceased. Increased my many questions

Where is the lesson? Is the universe trying to teach me something with this grief?

Cause honestly, it just feels like I've been kicked in the teeth

Your life was brief, way too brief, and that's the greatest tragedy

Should I open up the Bible, change my view on mortality?

Maybe the Quran, Gita or the Torah

Looking for some closure, I'm feeling like an explorer

But my inner core decor is full of black and lacking color

My heart's soar and raw, I just want to talk to my brother

I've been in this war before, I know what it is to suffer

I'm testing the waters, trying to recover

If I drown, send my body to my mother

Cause my spirit's with my father, my boy Will and all the others

I'm testing the waters, trying to find a way to be okay

I still think about you every day, trying to find a way up from down

Testing the waters, trying to find a way to be okay

I still think about you every day, trying to find a way up from down

Testing the waters, I hope I don't drown