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I wish I'd went to sleep for ten years and nobody'd wake me up

I wish I could flip a switch in my brain and it all would just turn off

I wish I'd put down enough medicine to drown the noise out

I wish I'd blink my eyes three times and it all would work out

But I lay here in the silence, in the darkness, in the rust of my own thoughts

Is this imbalance just a breach of my own trust

I'd like to think I have it all together, but we both know that's false

I'm sick of choking down the charcoal, what is living at this cost

I'd like to think it'll all work out

I'd like to think I'll find some happiness in the bitter, twisted doubt

I'd like to hope I wouldn't finish my conditioner and shampoo at the same time

But we both know what I would do

It's true

We both know what I would do

I wish I could sit at the dinner table and eat some soup in silence

I wish my brain would stick to the manual, there'd be no complaint of discompliance

Wish I could text my friends I'm going through with and they'd show up at my door

I wish I could time travel to a time when I remember a before

I'd like to think it'll all work out

I'd like to think I'll find some peace in this warped and mangled doubt

I'd like to hope that I could start the day and I wouldn't feel so blue

But if that happened, I fear I don't know what I would do

It's true

I fear I don't know what I'd do