I Had Lyrics

I had a notion deep in my soul

Like an ocean of impossible

And it's rolling tide after tide

A holy roller working overtime

I had a breaking beyond my bones

A heated aching of an ancient note

And it takes me back to the start

Where wonder was my counterpart

I flick it off like it's not worth the time

As if it's not the call of my desire

Oh, wretched man who works inside of me

Could you take a break

Could you beat it for goodness sake

I had a nightmare of the best kind

Twas not fair but it broke the line

And it called me out of my sleep

And into calming waters deep

I had a bottle and I shattered it

But it's broken curse still roamed a bit

But I'm back now and stronger still

I will bash my way back up this hill

I wrote off my desire as afterthought

As if my soul did not know what it wants

Oh, Holy Ghost Who works inside of me

Could you give me faith

Could you steel me for goodness sake

It's not about what I had

Only matters what you have

It's not about what I had

Only matters what you have

It's not about what I had

Only matters what you have

It's not about what I have

Only matters what you had