I Hurt Myself Again (The explanation you never got or wanted.) Lyrics

I hurt myself again today and I cannot begin to explain

All of the reasons in the world wouldn't do when you hurt someone by hurting you

It's been a year since my last attempt I let you know things but not to the extent

I dial back so you don't see the fear I feel whenever I'm alone, my dear

You probably always seem to wonder why I turned the music up louder

I try to drown the voices in my mind that tell me I'd be better not alive

I hurt myself again today and I cannot begin to explain

All the reasons the world wouldn't do when you hurt someone by hurting you

And I could tell you it wasn't your fault but I know you would assume the blame

And it hurts me to know you would because all you ever did was good

All the talks we had of the future were brighter than I could imagine

The closer it seemed, the better I felt but every corner stood the hand that I was dealt

Nothing you ever did was wrong, you see It was all in my head, it was me

There was nothing you could've done I let it in so the darkness won

I hurt myself again today And I will never get the chance to explain

All the reasons the world wouldn't do But I'm sorry that I left you