Kairos Lyrics

As I'm walking through the valley of the shadow of death

I feel my heart tear through my stomach

Feeling empty

Nothing left

Reaching down into the hole in my chest

To my surprise

I find a letter top left corner recognize your address

Tears hit the page

Flash backs of what I once new

I scream at the sky

Take me up there with you

I lost my love for beauty

Eyes drenched in pain

So scared and all alone

Feelings of going insane

Later on that night I hit up Devin for a gun

I'd never loaded up a clip

Yet this would be my last one

More scribbling on paper mixing ink with my tears

Finding words to describe why this will be my final year

No one could ever understand

Fuck this it's no use

I'm thinking back to Chris's letter

He wrote while tying up his noose

How he blamed the ones that pushed him

Talking drugs for the pain

But at the end of the day no one could understand

Hey man

Show me how little you care

Remember

You said you'd always be there

Remember

Yeah

I've got a full tank of gas

And the pistol in the center console

Fighting the past for so long

I've given into my inner monster

Driving up the highway headed out of town

They'll find my body in the woods

Why don't they love me now

Will the kids that barely know me

Say that we were best friends

Will they finally bump my music now that my life's hit its end

I can't think about my mother

It makes my mind start to spin

I take a swig of the bourbon to get those thoughts out of my head

I go a little faster shifting up another gear

It's a dark cold night

Voices ringing in my ears

I find a nice quiet quarry

Should I do it right here

Pulling out my phone it's time to send a last text

A black screen with white words reading "I'm Sorry" nothing less

Nothing more

I breath in deep as I'm about to press send

I hear a ding

It's a message from some kid I just met

It read: It was so nice meeting you I'm stoked to become friends

Hey man

Show me how little you care

Remember

You said you'd always be there

Remember

Yeah

Hey man

Show me how little you care

Remember

You said you'd always be there

Remember

Yeah