im out of control Lyrics

Out of my hands i can't calm how i'm feelin'

I like the idea of me hung from the ceilin'

So what i'm in hella pain it's been a year since i been out the institute yes i'm in fear

I ain't gettin' better i'm tired of hurtin'

I'm takin prescriptions but they are not workin'

I do not tell anyone that is my problem

Got so many issues so why can't i solve em

Gave up on tryin it's way too much pressure

At this point i settle for feeling so lesser

I might disappear i might be uncle fester

Who knows if i show up for next years semester

They callin' me nice but it should be a gesture

Don't do shit for profit don't care bout the pleasure

It's mentally drainin' it's all just a pester

I've run out of gas showin' too much damn effort

Girl you don't want me i'm too much to handle

I'm darker than midnight you can't light my candle

You won't see the real me i'm all just a scandal, but i'll get to jammin' like Julius Randle

No feelings inside of me they took em far away

All of these bitches that love me and my old ways

I'm talkin' sleepin' and bangin' on holidays

Just a lil later they cross me like Hardaway

Swear i'm not shit but a brother with issues

With family, women, i can't collab with you

And even though i won't do nothin' against you

I find myself cryin' and clutchin' a pistol

Let out so much water i need me a tissue

Don't trust your self conscious it'll only dismiss you

Same way ya old girl would scream that "i miss you"

The very next day she gon' publicly diss you

You tell me to get it together i'm tryin'

"Truth" is my handle you know i ain't lyin'

She think that it's fake when i say that I'm dyin' but baby I'm out of control

I struggle wit harming my arms do be bleedin'

They say that they here but i think they deceivin'

I never reach out when i know that i need it say baby it's out of control

I'll talk to Alexa before i approach you

You too hard to reason wit i cannot coach you

That's what they be tellin' me like they supposed to

My baby I'm not in control

I try to convince that I'm actually healin'

This music is where imma say what i'm feelin'

If pull the plug is it ground or the ceiling

It's not in my fuckin' control

I rap like im sleep and in truth i'm exhausted

I'm tired of livin' put me in a coffin

I ain't savin' money and therapy costin'

The same way the Celtics ain't green wit out Boston

Life is like poker you win or you lose

but the more that you gamble the more you gon choose

whether keep it or keep addin' digits by twos

and then once it's all gone you'll be singin' the blues

I talk to my demons and talk to my angels

I never pick sides like a chain when it dangle

No average joe but i'm not on the bengals

I don't play QB but i got all the angles

I look on the field and emotions get tangled

If you piss me off better chill or get strangled

Love no more than one bitch this ain't a triangle

Can't trust not a person my heart is too mangled

Fuck all the bullshit i'm coolin' from drama

Shit drivin' me crazy but this ain't a Honda

The only damn woman i trust is my mama

Think that I'm lyin'? i'm not in pajamas

I act like a psycho to keep y'all away from me

Really i need it for someone to pray for me

Not your best interest to mess up and play wit me

Sleep wit one eye cause you ain't gon' go stray from me

They say they can feel me but they are not able

Bitch i'm watchin' Netflix and you stuck on cable

They once was a friend now they out of my stable

I still hope you eat but just not at my table

I'd say i'm the realest but that is a fable

Got so many problems can't give 'em no label

My head just be spinnin' like Hanukah dreidel

This is the mind of the fucking unstable

You tell me to get it together i'm tryin

"Truth" is my handle you know i ain't lyin'

She think that it's fake when i say that I'm dyin' but baby I'm out of control

I struggle wit harming my arms do be bleedin'

they say that they here but i think They deceivin'

I never reach out when i know that i need it say baby it's out of control

I'll talk to Alexa before i approach you

You too hard to reason wit i cannot coach you

That's what they be tellin' me like they supposed to my baby I'm not in control

I try to convince that I'm actually healin'

This music is where imma say what i'm feelin'

If pull the plug is it ground or the ceiling

It's not in my fuckin' control (Truth)