REDUX Lyrics

Okay, I've been awake for days

Thinking bout parties and plays

Forgot about my favorite tastes

I'd lick my lips but that's a waste

I keep experiencing different scenes

About how my life can be

Losing sleep over the thought

Of knowing I'll be the death of me

I remember when I was young

The white boys all used to tell the teacher

My brownie skin was rubbing off

I was some little dirty creature

But now it's strange to me to see these boys

Look up to spices like me

Look for a thicky Latina

To break the pure white family tree

I could say that's it's ironic

And ask you, "Don't you think?"

But it don't matter anymore

I'm trying to let that ship sink

Cause these times

I've been like a mime

Trying to break out of a box

I'm lookin for the signs

Cause if my life is a lie

And all that I write

Is just a waiting place

For me to return to my drive

I wanna be right

But there's no end in sight

And everyday I'm living in spite

Of what my family wants me to be behind the mic

Yeah I know life isn't easy

It ain't breezy

It ain't pleasing

But for a minute

Can't there be some relieving

From the grieving of losing passion

For settlement

Just become sediment

No elegance, irrelevance

Living life with distant relatives and friends

Who say they'll be there till the end

But if you stray they won't defend

Your passionate energy

So buddy, give up on all your dreams

And get that money from mediocrity

To pay off your four year degree

What's the point in life

If you have to forget about the life you want

Life constantly tells you to try

But only shows you joy to taunt

So I just close my eyes

And sleep and dream about the life I cherish

I'm terrified that all these goals I have in five years will vanish

Is there a reason to try

Or is life meant to be moderate

I guess I'll try not to cry

But tears flow just from the thought of it

I'll try to close my eyes for just a moment

To maybe find relief

Cause tomorrow I know I have to choose

How to hold my beliefs

How do I hold on