How Could I (Stage 2: Guilt) Lyrics

I always want

What I don't have that's why this didn't last

When I had you

I prayed for this thing to be untrue

Stuck on repeat

The rain, the wind, clouds moving

Away from me

That's where I push all the good things

How could I ever hurt you like this When all I ever wanted was you

And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me

What I made you go through

How could I ever explain myself

For thinking of someone else in my bed

And how could I ever forgive myself

For destroying what I always wanted

You're still the first one I run to when I'm alone

And I always am

At least in my head, I sing this song

To make sure

You understand this is not your fault

It's always me

The issue itself, instability, insecurity

I'm used to it so much I seek it

How could I ever hurt you like this When all I ever wanted was you

And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me

What I made you go through

How could I ever explain myself

For thinking of someone else in my bed

And how could I ever forgive myself

For destroying what I always wanted

I always thought you looked better without me anyway

Always thought you looked better cause I take up too much space

I always thought you looked better without me anyway

Always thought you looked better with someone who's okay

(Guilt, my soul seeks mercy, maybe you're my destiny, please)

How could I ever hurt you like this

How could I ever forgive you

How could I ever explain myself

How could I ever forgive myself for destroying what I always

What I always wanted

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What I always wanted

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