Hara-Kiri Lyrics

There's a speed camera in my head

Flashing me, telling me to slow down

But the breaks in this old shitheap

They don't work anymore

And I'm backseat driving anyway

Just waiting on a breakdown

Or waiting on a spin out

I know I'm gonna spin out

And crash into a ditch

Let them identify my body

Notify my family

And then they'll search through the wreckage

To find a piece of me, who I used to be

But there's nothing left to find of me anymore

I can't sit still now

Do anything for a way out

I got this minefield mindset, exploding at the seams

But it's a lock down lock down

You're not getting in and I'm not getting out

Stumbling down the tightrope of reality and dreams

The psychiatrist is saying that I've started displaying

Troubling behaviour and it's cause for alarm

A crisis referral's got me running round in circles

Drug me, dope me, before I do harm

Push it all away Push them all away

Push it all away Push them all away

Push it all away Push them all away

Push it all away Push them all away

Something's wrong

Impulses firing

This impulse buying

I've no self-control

Something's wrong

I'll do anything gratifying

And it's terrifying

I can feel myself letting go

Push it all away Push them all away

Push it all away Push them all away

Push it all away Push them all away

I've got everyone treating me like a stranger

And telling me that I need to make changes

And I know deep down that I am in danger

Of losing myself, of becoming someone who can't get back

Get back get back

To what? I don't know

But I'm feeling like I don't even care

Get back get back

Got to take your time, slow down,

Find out if there's anything there

Cause everybody's saying that I'm different

And telling me they're starting to lose interest

But I've lost all hope of finding a reference

Of who I was now

Of who I am now

They found me

Dying in the sheets

They found me

Dying in the sheets

They found me

Dying in the sheets

They found me

Dying

This shooting star

Will crash down hard

And will scatter, will shatter me

Till there's nothing left

When I've come to rest

And nobody to sift through the debris

I'm going to do what I want to do

Not going to listen when they tell me to

Stop overthinking and drinking just to get through

Don't want to stop or recognise

I'm living a life I fantasise

I'm staying up, taking off, gonna split the skies

This shooting star

Will crash down hard

And will scatter, will shatter me

Till there's nothing left

When I've come to rest

And nobody to sift through the debris

I'm too wired to be tired

I'm too bored, I want more

I'm getting haunted in the daytime now

By the things that go bump in the light

A sunrise through wild eyes

A sickline, a lifeline

I have a million things I want to do

And it feels like I'm running out of time

Fingertips reeking of cigarettes

I'm trying to make plans I'll soon forget

Cause I'm drinking anything for days on end

To stop the never-ending feeling of discontent

It's time for social media meltdowns

And 'Lost In Translation' marathons

With a broken compass stuck in my hand

To navigate a shitstorm I don't understand

With shaky hands

And nauseous turns

Palpitations

Carving arms

Empty bank balances

I will embrace all of

This is mania

I'll make my own reality

I'll be the person I don't want to be

Mania

I'll make my mind fully defenceless

I'll do what I want

I don't care about the consequences

I've been playing with matches

Burning to ashes all that's left of me

But when the smoke clears from my stinging eyes

All I can see is death in front of me

I've never hated myself so much

I'm finding shame but I'm losing touch

Opening my wrists while closing doors

I've never seen this much blood coming out of me before

Lost inside my mind

A mindset setting off a minefield

Tell myself that

It's not real

It's not real no

Oh god, this can't be real

I've never hated myself so much

I'm finding my shame, but I'm losing touch

Opening my wrists while closing doors

I've never seen this much blood coming out of me before

You're fucking sick

You're fucking sick

You think your friends care, you pathetic fucking prick?

Look at those arms

Look at those scars

They're fucking ugly and you know that's what you are

When you fetishise your misery

The vanity of your self-loathing

Thriving on your medical history

Just quit your fucking moaning

You self-indulgent narcissistic cunt

You self-indulgent narcissistic cunt

Another woe is me

I know they won't miss me

You self-indulgent narcissistic cunt

You're fucking sad?

You're fucking sad?

You entitled fuck you haven't got it bad

You don't know shame

You don't know pain

You've only got your fucking self to blame

There's a speed camera in my head

Telling me to slow down

Slow down

Slow down

Slow down

Hell no

I'll crash into a ditch

Let them identify my body

And notify my family

And I could crawl from the wreckage

Pull myself free, if I wanted to be

But there's just no fight left in me anymore

I've tried

I've tried

I've tried to exist

To be someone who's not ashamed of themselves

But I'm someone who's done trying now

All the little things I own

All the comforts of home

Can no longer console me now

Cause the life that I've shared

Is no longer sanctuary

And it's time for me to bow out

So I'll watch you walk away

An intricate ballet

I might be dragging my feet, I didn't mean to drag you down

I might be dragging my feet, I didn't mean to drag you down

It's over now

I can hear the sound of my grave in the wind through the trees

And it's screaming out my name

It's over now

Get the knife

Get your pills

Choke 'em down like you said you would

You can do it

Nothing matters now

The thoughts of the people you love

They don't matter now

They don't matter now

You've never felt so much peace in your heart

You can do it

You can do it

You've never felt so much peace in your head

Climb into the sheets

Drift off silently

Comfortably in bed

Into the morning light

Slip away softly

The last words in your head:

"It's time to die"

"It's time to die"

"It's time to die, it's time."

"It's time to die"

It's time to die, it's time

It's time to die, it's time

It's time to die, it's time

It's time to die

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets

They found me dying in the sheets