Not a Pessimist Lyrics

I hate the way my mind makes me think

Nothing good is working out for me

I've been blinded by the evil side

I just wanna see the good in life

I feel like my oh my, my mind is heavy

Making me believe

That everything that's bad is coming

Right to me

Right to me

I'm not a pessimist

I don't mean to lose it

I'm confused why I think like this

I'm not a pessimist

I can't leave my room

It's hard to do but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist

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I hate the way I'm never satisfied

I'm only happy for a little time

Then I think of everything I don't have yet

And it makes me cry

Yeah it makes me like

I wonder what I gotta do

To feel joy for longer than two seconds

I always think it's fleeting

Thinking negatively for no reason

Good times are only here for a season

When did I start to believe these things

Taking over my mind

Everything seems not alright

I'm not okay

I don't mean to be this way

Putting myself through pain

Trying so hard to be a positive person

My mind says no way

I've read all those books, seen all those speeches bout the power of the brain

I think they're pretty accurate cause mine has power over me

I'm not a pessimist

I don't mean to lose it

I'm confused why I think like this

I'm not a pessimist

I can't leave my room

It's hard to do but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist

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Nobody gets it, they think I'm being dramatic

I'm not a negative person, it's a really bad habit

Yeah there's more to me than you see

I really wanna think differently

I feel like my oh my, my mind is heavy

Making me believe

That everything that's bad is coming

Right to me

Right to me

I'm not a pessimist

I don't mean to lose it

I'm confused why I think like this

I'm not a pessimist

I can't leave my room

It's hard to do but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist

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I'm not a pessimist

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